Cheryl Cole tells Alan Carr that she still doesn't know why Ashley Cole cheated on her
Above: Cheryl Cole appears on Alan Carr's Chatty Man and talks about Ashley Cole and Tre Holloway
CHERYL Cole says she still doesn't know why Ashley Cole cheated on her and that he still hasn;'t given her a reason.
When Alan asked her if Ashley has ever explained why he was unfaithful, Cheryl told him: No, never, never. I still dont [know] to this day - no. It was really frustrating.
I think maybe for him that would have been like admitting he was wrong and justifying me leaving the marriage, whereas if he didnt say anything, he could pretend it wasnt happening maybe. It's kind of sad really."
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Cheryl also admitted that she gave Ashley a copy of her book, Cheryl: My Story, before it was published, adding that she "thought it was only fair" that he saw what was being written about him before it hit the shelves.
Describing how she felt after finding out about her ex-husband's affairs, she told Alan: Heartbreak on its own is a horrible thing to go through, you add the media stuff and its pretty tough.
I mean the shock initially was the hardest to take. The next time, when it was like five, six, seven, eight... that was just like, again, again, again, but initially wa! s the hardest part."
But despite her heartache, Cheryl is totally loved up with new boyfriend, Tre Holloway, who is one of her backing dancers on her A Million Lights tour.
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And although she's, like, the hottest woman alive, she says it was HER who did all the chasing.
She admitted: "Handsome isnt he? Yeah. I put it on him. It was me, it was all me. I actually met him two years ago. I had to do a little bit of the chasing. I cast a spell. Nothing a bit of sweaty rehearsal cant sort out!"
Cheryl appears on Alan Carr's Chatty Man tonight at 10pm on Channel 4.